Do it, & Do It Scared.

I posted the other day that I was feeling “patient” about my practice (dance). I… still stand by that, but if I’m being honest I do still feel stuck. I’m both happy and disappointed with where I’m at in my journey. That disappointment is SO telling of what I WISH i was doing. Let’s discuss.

Also… this blog is becoming “RJ writes about how the Hidden Brain podcast relates to his life.” I’m gonna be so real with you all - this is about to be the laziest post I’ve ever made. It’s a part of the process… Anyway, I was listening to this today:

Which prompted me to think of all of the things I feel stuck on:

• Choreographing

• Storytelling

• Sharing my thoughts & feelings candidly

• Sharing my personal life publicly

• Posting my face

• Teaching my own classes

• Creating my own work & concepts

I could elaborate on why i feel stuck on each of these, but I won’t. It all boils down to fear, to being insecure, and worrying about wasting mine or other peoples’ time.

Take away from this podcast:

• Small chunks. Post/Produce LITTLE things. Create many more mini-checkpoints.

• Try and “pour out” the bad content. Make a bad dance. Make a bad video. Post the bad photo. Get the bad stuff out so you can let yourself get into flow

• Try practicing in a novel way. Stress make our tissues grow (physical exercise stuffs), but stress also make our brains grow. Add a constraint. Do things backwards. etc etc.

I’m sure there was more, but alas, this is a lazy blog post. I am vomiting my thoughts out here y’all :)

ACTION STEP: I want to force myself to CREATE. Step 1 that feels easiest. 1 8 counts every day for 7 days. I will post it starting Sunday. Also… I have to randomly pick a song. I think i’ll pick from my discover weekly or something? idk. Baby steps y’all!

Stay tuned for whatever this is… perhaps I’ll report back.

xoxo,
RJ